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My mom randomly out of the blue gave me banana bread this morning as a gift. She knows about my bulimia. I'm worried she's worrying about me. She prides herself in being "the research queen" and i'm afraid she's been reading about potassium or heart things with bulimia. Do you think she's been worrying about me? Im leaning yes... : ( reason number#568 to not binge-purge.... worrying my mom ;_; (deep breath in...deep breath out)

I’ve somewhat recently relapsed after gaining more than half my recovered body weight due to alcoholism, and I’ve been able to get back to my pre-alcoholic weight off of just restriction. Since the beginning of August I’ve been caught in a nasty binge/restrict cycle. I’ve been trying to break out of that with one good purge (very stupid of me but I genuinely believe that one interruption could fix it, eating at maintenance hasn’t worked) but I’ve completely lost my ability to purge. I... relapsed- seemingly lost ability to purge?!

Currently doing it 2-4 times a week and I dont think it's good for my body but I'm just having a hard time quitting (other mental health issues etc.). Would reducing it to once or twice a week be "okay" for my body? Or more like once every two weeks? I'm trying to figure out what to aim for/work towards, considering perfection (aka in my situation no purging at all) probably isn't attainable for me right now.

So I lost 4 kg from 68.3 to 64.3 by fitness classes and massive amounts of walking, but my intake was big. Now my feet are pulsing. For days. I need to avoid injury, so I need to take a couple of days of bed rot. if I do that, to stay at tiny deficit I must have 1033 calories a day. Oh my god but I am not used to intake being so low now! I’m gonna struggle so so much. Shit.

What was the moment you realized it’s never going to be enough? Enough food, enough emptiness. And despite reaching that moment, did you still continue? It happened to me a long time ago, but it also happened yesterday in a new way. I have been purge free for quite a long time (never remember a definitive date) but I had a moment yesterday when I was eating a very good homemade sweet food and I realized I had given that food so much power over me, I kept putting it away and going back to it... Never Enough

I know the title is confusing, so I’ll clarify, I don’t mean food you explicitly buy to b/p or that you gravitate towards when you’re in a binge episode. I’m currently trying to eat some black bean soup that I’ve previously purged numerous times, and it’s making me realize that there are a few meals that despite never wanting to b/p on them I associate with purging. Meals like this were just purged because it was food in my stomach that I wanted Out, not really something I’d intentionally... Do you associate certain foods with purging?

purged and immediately went to lie down, which doesn’t seem too concerning as ofc i’d be tired, but now my heart feels like it’s beating fast and my arms and legs feel weird… not super weird but a little tingly is this normal? is there anything i can do to recover from a purge and get back onto doing work?

bulimia truly is an endless spiral of misery. you can try and joke about it or make the most of it but you’ll always end up back in the same place. i want to be able to restrict again so badly to get a chance at having a life outside of this disorder but restricting at sub20 bmi just feels so impossible in comparison to bmi 22+ can anyone else relate??

idk if the title makes sense but lately when i purge, i only manage to get like a chunk of it out and my gag reflex seems to give up half way and im just left gagging or only bringing up spit i drank hot liquid with the food so that itd be easier to come out and also purge like 5 mins after eating so im not sure whats going on :/// for reference i am bmi low 15s-high 14s idk if it has much to do with my weight or if my gag reflex just doesnt work anymore, but purging takes a lot more effort... purging ability stops halfway

Binged earlier and when purging towards the end I just kept burping and heaving, does that mean it's all out? I weighed myself before and after and I'm not back down to my pre-binge weight by 1lb. I feel lighter and more empty but idk I'm freaking out

i’ve had an ED for quite some time but only more recently have i started purging through vomiting. a problem i keep having is that i’ll purge as much as i can but i notice that after a while my throat/chest will start burning a bit and i get a gross bitter taste in my mouth? i usually stop once i hit that point but it kinda makes me anxious to stop there because i usually don’t feel like i’ve gotten everything up. is that a universal experience? is it something that will get easier if i push... does the chest burning get any easier with time?

Hi, I don't have bulimia per se but I figured this would be the best place to ask about it. I purged 3.5 bags of marshmallows today, which usually goes quite well, and today it did too but quite early on already I started purging quite a lot of fresh (intense, normal-light) red blood. I figured I'd continue purging because that was 1750 cal and I didn't want to keep it down. In any future scenario, would it matter for the blood situation if I kept on purging? Strangely, at the end of the... Purging blood